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Spare Me From the Mold by DanOstergren

This is a truly moving piece. Not only does the model radiate self-confidence and inner strength simply by her bold pose and her fearle...


  • Mood: Contempt
  • Listening to: "You're Gonna Go Far Kid" - The Off
Kitty's List of Things to be Done:
- Finish Neshomeh's commission picture (no I haven't forgotten)
- Finish my two-month-old Lor'themar/Halduron fic
- Finish my three-day-old Lor'themar/Halduron/Rommath emotional warfare fic
- Finish and post chapter three of OFUA
- Finish my several-months-old Warriors mission

Kitty's Motivation Level: Below zero.

None. Zip. Nada.

Mostly this is because I'm having a hard time prioritizing between projects. That list up there is my most recent decision, from most to least important, about which project has how much priority. The first four tend to volley first place between each other by the hour, but at least the fifth is pretty consistent.

But recent discussions with individuals who shall here remain unnamed have been sapping my motivation, too. Discussions concerning the appropriate pace and method to produce new stories and art.

Quite frankly, the more I think about it the more disgusted I become and the more thoroughly I set my feet and refuse to budge.

The point of view supported by this person seems to be that writers, at least, should update when their readers feel they should update. When I say I figure the readers won't expect any pattern to my updates, this person responds with, "No, they expect it to have died." When I say I hold back on updating so that my readers are not disappointed when I can't keep to a schedule I never intended to follow, this person counters, "And are instead disappointed that the schedule sucks."

To be blunt: Well fuck you too.

I am really, really tired of the audience believing they can control the artists/writers/singers/entertainers whose work they enjoy. Really tired.

They are not the ones sitting at their computers or at their desks and working literally hours on end to create decent, well-written stories or poems or lyrics. They are not the ones beating themselves up because they have managed to hit a snag in an otherwise brilliant story in which they have become emotionally invested. They are not the ones who either spend days or weeks or months creating characters who, as time passes and the creation period draws to a close, become like children to them. They are not the ones who fight against what they want and instead sometimes force themselves to write scenes that break their hearts all in the name of keeping true to a canon character's canon personality.

They are not the ones who spend hours or days hunched over the same picture, worrying over every line and every tiny detail until they can't see straight and their backs and necks and wrists and fingers ache so bad even morphine couldn't dull the pain. They are not the ones who spend nights on end looking at far superior art and loathing the pictures they are working on and despising themselves for not having that talent and literally coming to the verge of tears because they cannot understand why they possess so little motivation to improve their own skills. They are not the ones who are ashamed to post anything anywhere because they lack either the artistic talent or the equipment necessary to produce decent-quality pictures, but do so anyway because they promised a friend or three.

Most importantly? They are not the ones who devote literally hours at a time to creating pieces of art to be seen and judged and hopefully appreciated by the few people who actually pay attention to them for even a moment.

But none of that matters, because apparently your audience is your fucking god when you publish things. Yep, doesn't matter that it's your idea, your imagination, your time, your energy, at the end of the day the audience gets to decide when you update ongoing projects, what you do next, and whether or not you write what you want to write or draw what you want to draw.

Great. Wonderful. It's so good to know I am a slave to people I don't know and only choose to entertain at all because I value their opinions on my work, since taking into consideration their unbiased opinions are how I can best improve my work. I never knew that before.

So I guess I'll either never update again or find people to talk to who do not have their heads up their asses and who do not happily wear the leash and collar they feel their audience - if they have any, because according to their comment of, "Also, what readers?" when I first broached the subject, I certainly don't, because they apparently don't feel anyone who comments on their work is actually reading their work and somehow this applies to me, too - has put on them.

Actually, no, I know something even better: I will continue to post and update when I see fit, and if anyone wants to get pissy with me about it, I hope they're ready for me to shove their bullshit right back down their throats and point them to the door.

And if anyone's wondering if I'm worried I'll scare folks off talking like this, guess what? I'm not earning money through my work anyway, and if they really appreciate my work, they shouldn't get their underdrawers in a twist when they see me post something designed to vent my irritation.

All I'm asking for is a little respect from those who choose to observe and read rather than create and share. I honestly do not understand why the hell no one else understands why this is an important thing for me.


Caroline Clemons
Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
United States
Yep, finally getting off my proverbial backside and creating a deviantART account! Hopefully this will inspire me to get back into drawing again...

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davidkawena Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014  Professional General Artist
Hey :wave:
Thanks for adding me to your watch list!

Feel welcome to join me on Facebook: and Twitter:

Thank you so much for your support!
Have a Wonderful Day - DK.
TixieLix Featured By Owner May 8, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the fave on my Tolkien piece! ^^
cemac Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2014
Thank you very much for the :+fav: for 'Left Outside Alone', which is truly appreciated. :blackrose::excited:
Serverus-Snope Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2014
Um... Are you the same KittyNoodles who was once part of the Protectors of the Plot Continuum? If so, then there's an unclaimed badfic you were interested in MSTING(?) that I may be interested in once I can start requesting missions. Does "THE ETERNAL ONE" ring a bell?
KittyNoodles Featured By Owner May 2, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Yes, I am that same KittyNoodles! Unfortunately I've decided to leave the PPC; I loved the missions and my characters, but I've decided to focus on my own fanfiction writing now. I'm not sure if I'll ever go back to the PPC, save perhaps as a regular Boarder.

However, if you're interested in my fanfictions, I can be found at Amariah_Moor on Archive of Our Own. I may also start posting them here. ^^
Serverus-Snope Featured By Owner May 2, 2014
I see. Then again, I guess I'm not really up for starting PPC missions myself.
grampsart Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the :+fav:
TheLimeTangerine Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks so much for all the :+fav:s! :aww:
nico-eos1 Featured By Owner May 25, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you for adding [Caracal] to your favorites ! :)
capitainrock2001 Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2013  Hobbyist
Thank you so very much for the fav all of themí
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